These are my thoughts. What you see on my personal tumblr, may not be how i actually feel. Its quite sad seeing your relationship change slowly each day. Things start to become different between you two when you least expect it. It seems like you two aren’t as in love with each other as before. And now you question yourself, what happened?
One of the worst feelings you can ever experience. You think you’re never good enough. You see all these attractive and smart people, and you think to yourself, “Why can’t I be like them?” You go through some sort of phase trying to remake yourself so you can be like them. What sucks is, if you’re in a relationship. You do the most stupidest, crazy shit just to make the jealousy stop. You start assuming and making up all these stupid stuff in your head. Then in the end, you make a complete fool out of yourself.
(via licaangel)
Once you get hurt, fucked over, used, played.. It changes you. You start to build up this huge wall for your self. You do it to protect yourself. You dont want anyone to hurt you again. You begin to keep your feelings inside of it. No one can get past it. You dont trust anyone anymore. You isolate yourself from love. You’re afraid of letting someone back in your life again and bringing your walls down. You think that they will do more damage to you. So you just become distant. You push them away. You do everything possible to help protect yourself from the pain. You just dont what to let everything that hurt you once, do it all over again..
You may think that there’s nothing else you can do. You begin to doubt yourself and the relationship. You start thinking how it may not be worth it, or how it won’t get better, something along those lines. All of a sudden, you just focus on all the negative stuff. You base all the bad things on the relationship. When what you should actually do is, focus on the wonderful things. Think about all those times we’ve had together, laughing, smiling, just having a good time. Focus on why we’ve been fighting this long, and what has been keeping us together. It’s because we love eachother. Throughout all those tough times, we got passed it because it couldn’t overcome how much we loved and cared for one another. What we have is real, and we’re lucky enough to experience this once in a life time love. You just need to switch your whole mindset on it all..
Hey, it’s me… And I don’t know if you’ll get this, but… This telephonic relation with your answering machine is so quick, so obscene and it makes me sick. See, I’ve had with your neglection, so don’t mind this correction when I say that I’m tired of waiting for you every day. Because, hey, a girl’s patience can run across a nation’s masons, roads, freeways, loads of concrete jungle, and even through deep sea ways.
So what am I to you? A business up for sue? A temporary affair your stupid mind couldn’t pull through? ‘Cause you foolin’ me like a joker with sweet nothings and mediocre so successfully, spittin’ antics to lay like a talent listed on yo resume. Baby, your methods make you seem heartless, as if darts can confess of the targets they aim for to avoid loneliess. So what’s your purpose? To call me yours? To open up the doors for manifestations and ovations since the treaty of our heart’s wars?
Shit, I’m nothing to you. I’m done hoping for you. I’m done dreamin’, prayin’, wishin’, so you know what? Adieu.
I’ll save you the trouble, the heartbreaking sin, and give you taste of your own medicine because here: We’re through. Yeah. We. Are. Through. And my dear, I’m glad to say I’m done talking to you.
-A. Reyes
I’m done. It’s not worth it anymore.
You make me feel like shit to you. You don’t know what you want, or who you want. It’s quite ridiculous because, if you really did love me, you wouldn’t even be confused with anything. You never loved me, for me..
I’m pathetic and stupid for always letting you back in my life, after everything you’ve done, and for you to tear me down all over again. Maybe i did it because i had so much faith in us, that no matter what, our love would over power anything that came in our way. Unfortunately, It didn’t work out that way.
I don’t like the way i feel when it comes to you being in my life. I don’t even want to have anything to do with you anymore. I don’t even think being friends with you would be right. You’ve emotionally damaged me, and I dont think I can handle being friends with someone who’s done that to me.
You can take back all your stuff. You can have the cow stuffed animal, the shirt you gave me, the picture frame of us, the bracelet, and the memories. Keep it all. I don’t want them with me.You’ve hurt me. In fact, you’ve hurt me in every way possible.
I may love you. But, you honestly make me regret so much.
I wish that you could’ve been there by my side to work things out, but no.I hope you find that special girl that you truly do want to end up with.
And when you find her, don’t let her go.
I wish you the best of luck.
Its quite sad seeing your relationship change slowly each day. Things start to become different between you two when you least expect it. It seems like you two aren’t as in love with each other as before. And now you question yourself, what happened?
All the good things in life always goes away.
